Bad Boys...Duh.

The title is enough said. I have always had a thing for guys I shouldn't. Guys I can't get, guys I can get but I shouldn't want or have, and all around guys. After listening to 'I Knew You Were Trouble' by Taylor Swift, they just appeal to me more. Like what is it? I think the reason why girls like bad guys so much is because we're so vulnerable but we like fights. I hope that made sense. After a while, you forget about them and settle down with a nice guy but with a nice guy, you already know that they would do the whole, 'chocolates, oh baby I love you, you're so beautiful' routine. With 'bad guys', you have to work for their affection and you have to work to keep it. And every girl wants them and your parents are supposed to hate them, so you feel like a badass boss just even being with him. That's the thing too, they would drop you in a second for another hot girl, so you keep up your look, you stay with the fighting because you love being with somebody who isn't afraid to say 'fuck off' to somebody 30 or older, or who will do crazy stupid things and make them seem like daily activities. But what we don't realize, until we've been hurt so much that we can't take any more damage, is that in the end, it probably won't work out. So, enjoy your 'badness' while it lasts...because we all know it won't. 

Quote of the post: 'I like bad boys, which is not good!' - Candice Swanepol (possibly one of the hottest Victoria's Secret models to live, next to Miranda Kerr of course.)

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Fuck Off, 2012 Is Done Motherfucker!

I love this picture. Like if my parents didnt use my computer or my sister at random times than this would totally be my back ground. But they do. So fuck. But honestly, it is the end of 2012. It is the LAST Friday of 2012! This is how I am celebrating because I am not old enough to drink..but since it IS the end of 2012 I decided to tell you guys what I will be like and what I won't be like and how my life WILL be since it is going to be 2013.
This is the year that my full bitch side will come out. If you piss me off, I will not say shit under my breath. I am going to come at you full force with my fucking opinion and tell you to shut the fuck up. So motherfuckers, beware. Because I will not be a pussy anymore.
The only secrets I will have and will keep is my identity on here, and my best friends secrets. I am going to have a post up soon of all of my secrets. Its going to be hard but I'm going to do it. And I don't care. So, yes. 
And I'm going to try to be more confident. I do not like where my self-esteem is right now. When I walk down the hallway, I am so insecure, it's bad. One day my friend Hope was wearing like sweatpants or something and I was upset inside because even in sweatpants she still looked pretty and normally I don't. I mean, it doesn't bother me so much now but it did and that was the problem. But you know what, cool. Fuck you. I'm done. I really do not give a flying fuck if you like me or not, if you like my clothes or not, if you like my personality or not. 
But I won't be a pussy, I will not be a bad friend, I will get good grades, I will be confident and my 2013 is going to be a fucking happy motherfucking time you little fuckers. 
I'm very vulgar today. Okay bye guys. 

Quote of the post: Read the picture. Do it motherfucker.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

SOS !

Is a cute fucking Christmas relationship to much to ask for? I want a relationship with the guy I actually like. It's honestly because I hold high standards for myself and after dating somebody who wasn't up to any of them, I learned to stick with my plans. This list of things I want in a guy is going to sound maybe pretentious, but I think it is quite reasonable and i you don't think it is, frankly, I do not give a flying fuck. My guy list :

Tall
Abs
Cute smile
Gentleman
Plays lacrosse
Hilarious
Fun
Adventurous
Great with kids and pets
Likes to stay up late at night.

Do not tell me that all of those things are a crime of passion or reason to ask for. But I guess I will never get my perfect guy *sigh*.

Quote of the post: I guess I will be smelling the mistletoe I won't be kissed under.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop. 

Merry Almost Christmas!

Deck the halls with boughs of bitches, fa la la la la, la la la la. 
It is my favorite time of year and I can't wait to give back! And get my own presents! So, anyway, who wants to know what I bought my friends? One of them reads this blog...but I'll tell her anyway.

For Hope I bought her an anchor necklace. 

For Shanyce & Emily, I bought an anchor bracelet.

For Jillian, I bought a random bracelet.

For Kateri, I went to a Cher Lloyd concert and got her a signed poster! Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that ;) As one of my early Christmas gifts, my mom took me to a Cher Lloyd concert! And since Kateri is a 'brat' I decided to get a picture signed for her. I think that deserves the best friend ever award.

So, yeah. I wish all of my loooovely people a very merry and SAFE Christmas. Bye, loves. xx

Quote of the post: merrrrrrry Christmas ! (:

XO, The Girl Behind the Laptop.

Alive Bitches ! + Some other emotional shit..

Hey guys and whores. So yes the infamous December 21, 2012. And guess what? Nobody fucking died. Well, I'm sure some people died of an annuerism. But anyway, I'm alive. And now I feel bad for the fucking doomsday preppers people who spent like their entire lives building and collecting shit they don't even need :p but I just wanted to tell you guys that I am alive and fuck yeah. But there was.like bomb threats and gun shots in m school for the like the end of the world and the.Connecticut shooting. Which I was really like shook up about. But I wish Connecticut would have removed the death penalty especially for him and fucking fried his pathetic ass. To bad he killed himself first. Rip angels.<|3 and yesterday was also my cousins 8 months of being gone. I love you Nikki. Miss you forever :'( but yesterday was also her stepdads birthday and soon Christmas is coming and she was like her moms only reason for living and now she's gone. So her mom is going away for Christmas with my aunt and her fiance. But yeah. Love you guys!  Bye. :)

Quote of the post: People should really learn what the fuck they're talking about..especially the end of the world shit.

XO, The Girl Behind the Laptop.

#TeamSingle

Remember when I said I was in love? Boy, was I wrong. I think I was mostly just in love with other peoples relationships. The only person I would want a relationship with, aka, Shane Kroll, has a fucking girlfriend and she really likes him and he is such a player. But anyway, I broke up with now ex-boyfriend (aka not shane) yesterday morning. He just started annoying me and he never showed any emotion and he was really clingy. I'm just happy I'm single again. But my phone died and I was at a school concert and he kept messaging me and than finally he was like 'fine whatever im done like whatever what couple really does this' because he thought i was fucking ignoring him
 And like bitch, calm your fucking tits bro
 So the next morning i was like...i have commitment issues, bye..and we bought each other Christmas presents even though he's Jewish and than he was like..I just wish I didn't waste money on you though. And he was saying it being sad. Like cool dickhead, you won't have to waste money on me anymore (y) But I thought I was in love but I'm not. So yes. Next time I say I'm in love, I'll review him in my head and than decide if I really am. Okay, okay loves. But I will forever looove you ! No doubt about that. So guys love you thanks for listening byeeeee :)

Quote of the post: if you find yourself looking for a reason to stay with a person, that right there is all the reason enough to leave that person.

XO, The Girl Behind the Laptop.

Crazy Moms and Whores For the Win!

Holy Jesus is this going to be a long story. To start off, my mom is a physcopath. I don't know if anybody else's is...but mine definitely is. And not in the actual sociopath kind of way but in the Overprotective loving way. But today I went to the basketball game at the high school with hope and blah blah blah. So we got there and shirt and than after the game, my phone died and hope left her phone at home, so we had to borrow some guys phone. Anyway, the guy left to go to 7/11 and shit. So blah blab blah fast forwaed and now me and hope went into the bathroom and my madre was waiting at the school and she didnt know that I was in there
 She looked inside the school but not the bathroom. But than when we got outside to wait for her, she stormed out of the car and screamed at us because apparently when she called the guy back since we didn't have our phones, he told my mother that we had walked to 7/11 too and some place I've never even heard of, bagel lovers, which he probably meant he bagel place by us which that is NOT the name of it. But anyway, she screamed at me and than when I explained while I was fucking crying she apologized and was all like, you don't know what it feels like to think something happened to your child. But after that, rewind. Me and hope were at the game and mind you, everyone there was assholes. Stepping on us, stepping on our shit
 Yeah. But our cheerleaders are such fucking whores and they don't even know how to cheer
 They only made it again because they had already been on the team since before that and the coach before the new one was an unfair biotch.. but they all suck and they're so bad at it. So that's whore and my madre. Now I am going to eat the cup noodles I made myself. Goodbye.

Quote Of the Post: basketball games: for the win.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

The Ms. BTL Awards 2012.

Dear minions, hello my beautiful bitches
 So today I owe my gorgie loves an explanation + some fun. I got into this stupid fight with this stupid fucking girl who I thought was my best friend. But now onto the fun :) today I will be giving out awards. For the people I know and who are actually worthy of being on this blog, I will be saying something about. Here we go.

Hope - best friend ever. 

Kateri- 10  bucks says the soon to be boyfriend Stealer.


Emily - stuck up.

Shanyce- Intimidating.

Marianna- spoiled.

Becky- stubborn and annoying.

Nicole- the goody two shoes bitch.

Shaun- sweet.

Jayleen- tries to hard.

Felicia- tragically irrelevant.

Brittney Ball- whore. Literally.

Alright my little cuties, I'm going now. So here are the BTL awards :) oh and btw...never realized behind the laptop was almost the same as bacon lettuce tomato. BLT. But that's it. Bye lovessss !

Quote Of the Post: Awards show true colors.

XO, The Girl Behind the Laptop.

Go Fuck Yourself.

If you bully people, you can go fuck yourself. I know this Amanda Todd story happened almost 2 months ago but I really don't give shit. I feel like fucking talking about. I hate bullies
 And you know what? Yes, I've done it. Am I denying it? Nope. I'm not being a pussy and I'm owning up to it and I am realizing my mistake and correcting it. If you didn't know, Amanda Todd was a 17-year-old girl who committed suicide on October 10th, 2012. After she flashed herself to a grown man, he had picked on her and also threatened to show the picture to everybody if she had not our on another show for him. After she refused and he did it, she changed schools and lost all of her friends. Than she had become to talk to an old guy friend who had a girlfriend at the time. After about a month he had told her that he really liked her and asked her to come over when his girlfriend had been on vacation. They had hooked up and than the girl went to fight her. 15 other people, including the guy 'friend' had come to watch. The girl threw her on the ground and began punching her. She played in a ditch and her dad found her. She moved to a new city with her mom and than the bullying online still came. She drank bleach and had to be rushed to the hospital and flushed. Than she overdosed and ad to be in the hospital for 2 days. She couldn't stop cutting herself and feeling alone. She had planned on getting a 'stay strong' tattoo just like her idol, Demi Lovato after her 18th birthday in November. But before that, she had committed suicide. This is why bullying is probably the most cause of suicide these days. I feel so dirty and guilty and shamed of even have taking part of ever saying a mean word to anybody in my lifetime. Its such a horrible thing to do and everybody and I mean every single person, even the fucking president, should feel bad too. If you bully, please stop it. I'm honestly begging you from the bottom of my heart, quit it. Say this shit to your friends or whatever. Yeah it might seem pussy to not say it to the person but at least you're not hurting that person. Hell, write it in your diary. Yeah I know, look at all my posts. Think about the ones.I'm going to write. I'll try not to be so cruel, some things I will have to let out. I'll try to tone it down though. I'm just saying though, realize what you're about to do before you do it.

Quote Of the Post: Your 'harmless comment' can cost somebody their life.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Overprotective parents + Not enough emotion

somebody please tell me why I was cursed with annoying, ignorant, overprotective parents. Winter break is coming up for school and I really want to hang out with my boyfriend during it. I asked my parents being a good kid and they wouldn't let me even consider it if I didn't mention meeting his parents but anyway I asked and my mom got all fucking annoying and shit about how I'm to young. I really like him and I need to her to shut the fuck up and realize that. I'm sure she did things her parents didn't like when she my age but even than, I like him a lot and she doesn't understand. And the next thing, I swear, he barely shows any emotion when he's texting. I'm not asking for hearts and Smileys all over the place but more than an lol or a thx or a lol thx or yup would be nice once in a while and.sometimes he does say really sweet things and I absolutely love it when he calls me baby. That's my weakness. That baby. Its deadly. And essential to my living. But I really need my mother to lay off my case and my boyfriend to show some interest.

Quote Of the Post: Being forever alone wasn't bad. 

XO, The Girl Behind the Laptop.

Hello, Loves.

Hello, my gorgeous loves. SOOOOOO....I know my gorgeous people that my 'stupid bitch whores' post was angry, but I am back and yes. I'm happy (: I'm so happy. I'm in loooove. And I don't want to talk about him all the time but for the last 2 or 3 hourswe talked about our future. Our kids, where we are going to live, our pets, and the crazy grandparents. Its just...nice to not be single but its even nicer to have him as a boyfriend. I don't think I'm going to say his name because than everybody would 100% know who I'm talking about but he is funny, sweet, and absolutely gorgeous and I'm happy with him (: So this would be my little love rant and now I will go back to being perpetually angry..

Quote of the post: I'm not saying I'm in love...but lately he's all I've been thinking about.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

stupid bitch whores.

Yes I realize this isn't fucking good grammar and I don't have a fucking picture with it or this isn't the right fucking font. But you know what bitch? I need to fucking vent. So there is this girl in my school, Angelina, I fucking hate the bitch. Angelina = whore. Anyway, her stupid fucking cousin, this idiot Brooke girl decided to message me and start all this random fucking shit. I swear this fucking bitch ass whore is going to end up on the first 48: case of the dead stripper/bartender. Like honestly bro, she's trying to say I said all of this shit that I didn't and being a dumb whore who knows nothing of what she's talking about and being fucking ignorant
 T his bitch needs to hop off and get a fucking life and shut the fuck up. Honestly bro, you aren't fucking cute. This is why I would rather stay in my middle school. The other middle school is fucking stupid. Its full of rich dumbass idiots who think they're hot shit when really they're just fucking whores. That sad pathetic fucking hoe needs to get the fuck over herself. Dumb cunt. I'm so fucking pissed and I don't even feel like I got most of my damn fucking feelings out
 But whatever. This fucking bitch got issues
 Bye you sad pathetic lonely ass fuck.

Christmas Or Chanukah?

Okay. Dilemma. What the fuck are you supposed to do when you're boyfriend is Jewish and Catholic and he used to celebrate christmas but he now celebrates chanukah because he has family troubles and than you finally find out what he wants for christmas, it's a phone case, your family isn't allowed to know you have a boyfriend and you don't have the money to buy it from online. That's my fucking dilemma. We're discussing presents and I want fuzzy socks. First, I wanted sweatpants, but fuzzy socks are waaaay better ! And so that settles my problem, but the problem is I picked out the perfect present for him and okay, guess what? My mother just called me back and I told her, "Madre, I forgot to get a present for (insert my friend's name here) and I really need to, so can I order it with your card than give you the money back?" and she said sure. Problem solved. Love my love. So do I give it to him for Chanukah or Christmas? AWKIES >.< But loves, sadly, I have to go feed my animalia's. Love, love, bye !

Quote Of the Post: Little white lies never hurt anyone.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

subs rule

Its office. I fucking love school right now. Our substitute teacher is sitting here letting us all go on our phones and it's so fun. I'm blogging right now and yeah so I don't even know what to say. I just loooove Mr. P right now (: okay bye



Quote Of the Post: Subs are always better


XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

brb; dying

I like this font. Its kind of fun. So guess what?! Remember that post I made yesterday about the guy? He's my boyfriend. Soak it in for a minute. I'm not forever alone!!!!!! Somebody wants me sexually. No, I'm kidding. But really. I have a boyfriend (: today I told my friend the problem I had with him and she used to date him and they were still friends kind of but my friend is really chill and shit. So, I don't know what she said. But he messaged me on Facebook and now we're dating! I used to want an in person kind of thing but
1. Nobody does that anymore
2. I was just happy he asked me out!
And we talked for 2 hours after that (: but now I have an issue because tomorrow we have sixth and eight period together and I don't know if I should hug him or kiss him
 My friend said both but he always gets to classes before me and I feel like it would be awkward to just make him stand up just so I could give him a hug or kiss and than their is the fact that he is shorter than me. But I really like him (: anyway, I have school tomorrow so its bed time for me! Thanks for listening just like you always do guys!

Quote of the post: the perfect guy is out there
 Even if he is an inch shorter than you.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop

Quick Update: My life sucks

okay so I'm just writing this sucky post quickly because I'm in gym and all but literally I give up on guys. Remember the post I wrote about me thinking its love? Yeah well eff my fucking life to fucking oblivion. Yea well I just witnessed him kiss a girl that I'm friends with...kind of and than he told his friend that he loved her and I'm pissed
 But than there's this other really hot guy Michael Bovenzi who doesn't even know I exist. He's just my cousins other boyfriend.

Technically.

He's in fucking love with her but she has a boyfriend. But than there's this OTHER guy, Sean, who I've talked about before and he's still perfect and funny and cute and than theres Rex and he's ughhh!

Alright now im writing on my computer again because I'm home and yes. So on facebook, I did the whole: like for honestly & best feature, inboxed. Sean liked it and I wrote that I liked him and his eyes for best feature because you have to see this fucking boys eyes. I want to fucking look into them and sleep forever. I know that sounds creepy but they're not contacts and they're fucking perfect ! But anyway, I have 6th and 7th and 8th period tomorrow with him and I hope 6th isn't awkward. Because for 7th and 8th, we have double period living enviorment and I sit in the back so we don't ever talk or see each other. EV-ER. but in 6th period, my entire class talks all of the time and we always talk and now it's going to be really fucking awkward. crap, i shouldn't have told him. im jumping off the empire state building right now. going to kill myself, bye loves. goodbye.

Quote Of the Post: Leaps of faith aren't always that fucking smart, asshole.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

P.S. he just wrote back and said 'thx' literally. those 3 fucking letters. please fucking shoot me in the head right fucking now. i want to die. let me die. See what happens when I try to like a guy? It blows up in my face! I tell him I really like him and I loove his eyes. and he says, 'thx'. I swear, it's like I'm fucking invisible to the opposite sex and I'm being serious here. I really like him and I thought he liked me, but since I don't have boobs, I'm irrelevant. Bye.

Hey, losers!

Dear, losers! I literally ran out of ideas right now. I could talk about black Friday and shit. But I decided to not to. I'm bored and wanted to update, love you guys bye. 

Quote Of the Post: askdjdshsbajwhfbd

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

50th post, Ignoramuses, Pissing Myself, and Thanksgiving!

Hey loooves ! So I just wanted to quickly write this post on my mobeuhlur device and say a couple of things. First off it is my fiftieth post. Even though I dont get a lot of comments and shit but when I see that people read my crap and stuff I get excited. Because than I don't feel like such a failure. But thank you guys so much for making all 50 posts so fucking amazing. I love you all so much. Thank you so much loves. And next ignoramuses and by that I mean my friend. Today we were all talking about how its Demi lovatos 2nd thanksgiving and I am in love with demi.  She is my role model idol and inspiration.  But my friend and I got into a heated debate because she though that Demi brought all the bulimia and binging and purging on herself. And my other friend and I were getting pissed because we were fucking right his fucking time. She wasn't and normally I admit to myself And not anybody eleven that I was wrong but this fucking time I'm fucking not. My friend and I are skin fucking right it's fucking scary. Ans last off, honey fucking booobooo. That shit is fucking hilarious. It is about Alana Thompson who is a redneck from Georgia and her family is disgusting. Go on YouTube and just watch some episodes its called here comes honey booboo. But now its thanksgiving because I left this post last night to sleep (; Anyway, I fucking love honey booboo and I love you guys. happy thanksgiving (: now I'm going To spend time with my family. Bye loves!

Some People.

Okay, so I know this is two posts in one day and all but I just have to tell you this. Ever since I was little I have been really protective of my mom. And yeah. So I always hated when somebody okay, a boyfriend of hers would try to play around with her or make her laugh or even hurt her so I was always protective. And I have this really big issue with her having sex. I hate it, likes it tears away at me inside if I even think about it. I have told her this time and.time.again and I drop little hints at night because I have insomnia so I am able to stay up at night. And when she closes and locks her door and than I can hear laughing from her room it pisses me the fuck off. And its happening right now and I've never shared that with anybody but her and now you guys. And I hate it and it makes Mr so depressed and hearing it right now makes me want to kill myself or kill her. I literally can not.stand it and I always want to cry when I hear it. So like, if I told her, why the fuck would she keep ducking doing that to me and she knows I'm awake because my stepdad asked if I was still awake and she was like "Oh yeah definitely" because she knows I have sleeping troubles. I just don't get it. I wish that I lived in California right now and I was going to Stanford and I wish my life was perfect and my family never messed with my emotions and made me not want to kill myself every second of the day because they like to make me feel insecure all the time. Well now her door is open and she is going to sleep because my stepdad was just complaining he was cold and in pain so my mom went to come put another blanket on me and saw I was up. I'm going to go and think of all the ways the world.would be better off without me.

Quote of the post: Sail away from the safe harbor, because maybe the marina doesn't want you anymore.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Mark Wahlberg Is Hot.

Okay. So I've come to the conclusion that Mark Wahlberg is incredibly sexy. I'm watching Contraband right now and I'm just loving seeing hip muscles ripple through his shirt and his nostrils flare up and his strong jawline. I just want to jump through the screen and fucking pounce on him. He's so fucking irresistible and my hormones are.going crazy. I want him inside of me right this instant. So yeah. I'm not even going to do a quote of the post right now because all I've said so far was that mark wahlberg is a fucking sex god.



XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Bitches Think I Care?

Hello, my loves. Alright, so just to clear some things the fuck up, I do not care what you think. Recently, on my old post, 'the girls I hate', I got a really nasty comment. Well, hater, I must tell you, you could shut the fuck up. And to all of the others, I do not give a damn about your opinion either. I write this blog for my feelings and do not act like you are the sweetest little innocent thing in god's creations. So, next time you would like to leave a comment like that bitch, don't. Because frankly, you are a sad, pathetic, whore leaving a comment I brush off anyways. So, love you guys. Bye.

Quote of the post: Next time you think I care, remember I couldn't give two shits less.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Paranormal Activity 4 and Hoebags.

Hey guys. Okay, so you're probably wondering why the fuck I have a picture of a girl being lifted up out of her bed. Freaky right? It's because yesterday I went to go see Paranormal Activity 4!! (: It was suuuper scary to me. Well, the end was. It wasn't that bad or scary until the end. But anyway, we went to the movies and we bought tickets to see Wreck-it Ralph because if we wanted to go see pa4 than we would need to sneak in or ask our parents to buy the tickets for us. Now, my mom would nevvvver in a million years let me see that, so my best friend & I snuck into see it. So we were really like freaked out that the security guards were going to see us. Because we snuck in like 20 minutes before it actually started and the lights were on and the door was open and we were the only one's in it. But than they turned the lights and the movie theater screen off and they shut the door and for like a good 5-10 minutes, nobody was there and it was just us. But than two people on a date came in and we were no longer scared. And than this group of girls came in and they started talking and we were like if these girls talk the entire time, we are going to slap them. But it turned out being a group of our friends but than we all sat together. And than this other annoying group of girls came in and they were so fucking annoying the entire time. It was like, Arianna Mazella and other hoebags. So. Fucking. Annoying. I wanted to kill myself. And one time they told us to shut the fuck up, meanwhile they were on their phones the entire time and shit. Tweeting about us no doubt. But we kind of got them back. When they were laughing obnoxiously we mimicked them and kind of made fun of them out loud. I don't know. It was typical middle school shit. And yeah. So, and than I decided to have a sleepover with my friend and than we prank called people and we told them that we were from Planned Parenthood because we watched Mean Girls and we told them we were pregnant. And than we called Anna Wintour's house, the editor-in-chief of vogue, this morning. Because we did it again. And it was so much fun so yeah. That's basically it. Love ya. bye.

Quote Of the Post: Being loud and obnoxious is not cute, it's fucking disgusting.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

My New Droid and My Annoying-Ass Period. (:

Hey guys (: So, the other day I got my new phone ! It's the Droid Razr M. I got a purple case with it! And I'm just happy because I downloaded all my music on it and shit. But now I am now up to date with all these other phones in my school. I mean, everybody basically has the iPhone but whatever. In 2 years, I get an upgrade and I can get the iPhone! But anyway, I love my phone. It's better than half the phones the kids in my school have. So I am so fucking flipping excited now. But I love my phone so yeah. That's all I wanted to say. So uh-huh. Oh and guess the fuck what?! I got my fucking period like 4 days ago. But I didn't realize it until like 2 days ago. Or yesterday. I don't really know. But it's like, I always get my period like, the day before I have somewhere big to go. Tomorrow, I have school. And due to hurricane Sandy, I haven't had school in 9 days. So, yeah, it's big going back to school right now. And my first period I ever got was the day before the 8th grade year. So, always something big! AHHHHHH. Anyway, I'm watching 8 simple rules right now. So, I'll talk to you guys later. Love you, bye.

Quote Of The Post: Sometimes it's not to bad to go with the flow. You might just surprise yourself.

XO, The Girl Behind the Laptop.

Slutty Costumes, Incognito Windows & Being In Love.

Hey guys. So, yes, I am still grounded. But I am using the incognito window on my laptop right now so my blog doesn't show up on my history. That's a really cool trick by the way if you didn't know. I've known about it for like 2-3 years now. If you have google chrome, when you press your start button and than you press the arrow next to google chrome, at the bottom, you can choose from a regular window or   an incognito window. When you press the incognito window, whatever you go on won't show up on your history. It's what guy's use when they want to watch porn. But anyway, I am here to talk to you about Halloween!!!! So it's coming up in 4 days as I'm writing this and I'm going to Party City today to get my costume. I really want to be slutty this Halloween and it sounds bad but it's true. I really just want to be in a slutty costume and somebody throws a wild Halloween party and I just fall in love with Sean Freese. Or he fall's in love with me because I'm already in love with him. I really like him. He's short, and has freckles, and brown hair, and you have no idea. Blue eyes. Like, clear ocean blue. The most blue in the world. Everybody says it and they're not even contacts. They are SOOOOO perfect. And I want to date him. And kiss him. ANNNDDD he plays lacrosse! LACROSSE. And he's just so perfect. And the other day in living enviorment, yesterday, there were 4 people at the lab table because we had to do a lab. And we all had a really good fun time talking about boners, burps, and sex. It was just really fun and funny!!!!! Okay, this was just a quick update. I have so much I want to say, but I'm not going to right now. Alright, I love you guys, bye!

Quote Of The Post: Even when you don't have butterflies, it could still be love.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Grounded For Life..

Hey guys, so I have to be quick because I don't have a lot of time before my mother comes back home and my sister gets out of the shower...I am grounded. Literally. Grounded for life. On my twitter account, I curse and that's just about it. My family found everything and now I'm grounded like there is no tomorrow. And for me right now, there isn't. But I just couldn't not let you guys hang for like a month straight without an explanation. It would kill me. Literally. I'm sorry!

Quote Of The Post: Mom's always find out.

XO,The Girl Behind The Laptop Who Is Grounded Right Now.

Can You Say Forever Alone?

Okay, so I know that A LOT of people lately have been saying how they're so 'forever alone' but honestly, half of them aren't. They've had boyfriend's the past week and they just broke up with them. It's not fair. Some of us really aren't ever going to get boyfriends. I really don't think I ever will. And I know that I could be an amazing girlfriend but nobody will give me a chance. And it's not fair. I really want a boyfriend. I'm around people who have boyfriends all the time. I live with my mom and her fiancee. And my sister's boyfriend is over all the time, I'm just a computer-loving, blog-writing, always-hungry ugly freak. But it's cool, you know? I love Jersey Shore, youtube, babies and food. BAIIIII.

Quote Of the Post: I AM AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN WHO DON'T NEED NO MAN - Jeydon Whale (; lmfao. I LOVE THIS ONEEEEE.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Inspired By Sabrina.

Okay, so this would be Sabrina Vaz. If you go to her youtube channel, youtube.com/sabrinavaz1 you would be able to see the suckiest singer ever. And she inspired me. I know that's mean, but it's true. Sabrina isn't that good of a singer, but she tries. And I admire that. She does good videos and she tries to sing. But downfalls of her, is that she's a slut and she gives people ear cancer. But like I said, she tries hard. I plan to do the same thing as her. Except it's not going to be my voice. I'm going to take the original song and just make a cover video to it with the song in the background! So I've already picked out some songs I'm doing it with:
Good Time - Owl City & Carly Rae Jepsen
Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen
Starships - Nicki Minaj
We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together - Taylor Swift
So, yeah. Love you's for now I guess. BAIIIII.

Quote Of the Post: Even bad people can have good intentions.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Thank You So Much.

You know how I like to preach Stay Strong and shit? Yeah, I'm a hypocrite. It's sooo hard to stay strong into today's society. I constantly have somebody breathing down my neck. Whether it's my family or my friends or people I hate, it's everybody. I can't take it anymore. I've recently think about, the world would be a better place without me. I have to much will power to actually end my life or self-harm, but life is hard. It's not all range rovers and Gucci sunglasses and grande frappuchino's from Starbucks. It's real life and real life is scary and unwelcoming. Like New York City on black Friday. I don't like sounding emo but I'm actually not, but I hate that everybody thinks the second I'm not outgoing or quiet or something, that something's wrong. I know that it's irrevelant and it probably doesn't make sense but yeah. I wouldn't end my life or self-harm because when I have a problem or I want to say something I just write it on this blog. You guys have been my saviors. And don't think I haven't noticed. I used to think I was just writing to myself in my bedroom when I actually wanted to write. But I know you people are out there reading. And besides, I get at least over 50 pageviews per day and that may not seem like a lot to you. But I'm a 13 year old living in New York with a semi-hard/middle class/okay/pretty good life with to much freetime, a lot of hate, and a laptop. Basically, I want to say thank you. Thank you so much. I have other people to thank too, but almost 80% of my happiness I have for this blog. And I take out all my anger on people on this blog. It's an anonymous blog for me that nobody knows I write and I like it like that. It's fun. My advice to anybody who has something to say but doesn't want to say it to that person or something, start an anonymous blog. ANYWHERE. Even if you don't have a computer, there are libraries. Use your phone. Use your friends phones. Use your friends computers. Or even a diary. Diaries don't work because I don't like to write down all of my personal thoughts in them because I get tired of it. And I have no motivation. I know that nobody see's it so if I don't write in it, who cares? But I feel like I'm abandoning a family if I don't write on here. This is really long but I can't thank you guys enough for being so perfect and loving me for me and not judging me and just boosting my confidence. And even though you don't know me, I know you guys. Guess what I did 2 nights ago? So when I got this phone that I've had for a while, everybody wanted to put their number in my phone. So I let them. So all these popular people that I don't even talk to are in my phone and I know that some of them are going through a hard time or stuff and I just sent each of them a text saying, 'stay strong', 'you are beautiful'. And it's not creepy because it's not like I'm saying, 'I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU RIGHT NOW GIVE IT TO ME BABYYYY, I LOVE YOUR NEW CURTAINS/FURNITURE I'M SITTING OUTSIDE OF YOUR HOUSE RIGHT NOW'. See? No. Anyway, just be nice bitches. Like, in school the other day, this kid didn't have enough money to pay for everything he wanted in lunch, so I gave him the money needed and I said he didn't need to pay me back. That's being nice, I hope he pays it forward. But anyway, I don't even know. I could ramble on for hours and hours but I won't. I LOVE YOU GUYS. Goodbye (;

Quote Of The Post: I don't know, I love you guys.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Please Follow Me

Alright my little bitch minions. Now that I know you're out there and I have new-found respect for my blog, but listen people. In order to keep my blog going with the same happiness that I have for it now, I want people to follow me. Now you guys know that I don't like being a beggar and all that shit, but come on dudes. It's not fair! I have thought about this a lot and I've also written a post on it before. Bottom line, follow me you fucking asshole bitches.

Quote Of the Post: I love you, WHY WON'T YOU LOVE ME.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Hey ugly biotches. Just kidding, I love joooo face yooo! Anyway, I just wanted to make this post for you guys saying a couple things:

1. I'm leaving you.
2. I lied to you. 
3. I'm getting a new phone! 

So about the leaving you part, my cousin wants me to go hang out with her for 2 days so I agree'd. Kill me. I definitely don't want to, but she likes to bug me at least once every month to hang out. But I love her. Anyway, I say anyway alot, don't I? ANYWHOOOO, see what I did there (; ANYWAY, I am really sorry loves but chyeahh! I'll probably blog at night when she's sleeping because we all know since I'm an insomniac, I can outstayawake anybody. Unless I'm in living enviorment. than all bets are off. Now, about the lying to you part! Remember my bucket list's posts? Yeah...not happening. I did one post and it was fun but I'm finished babes. Not chyennymore. But it was fun while it lasted...
thats what she said (;
And now, I'M GETTING A NEW PHONE!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited you have no fucking idea. This is the phone I'm going to get: 
http://www.verizonwireless.com/b2c/store/controller?item=phoneFirst&action=viewPhoneDetail&selectedPhoneId=5956
I'm so excited (: Just click on the link. But now I no longer need my crappy pre paid phone with no microphone. But my mamacitaaa doesn't want to pay for the whole internet charges or whatever. But she will in the long run, she's my mom & she'd do it (; Okay, so..now. I'll see you guys later. Anyway, I'm going to finish watching Law & Order with mahh sister holmie gee's. See you later babes (;

Quote Of the Post: NEW PHONES RULE DICK. pshhh. okay bye.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop!

Xoxo, Gossip Girl.

Okay, so my recent obsession is this new show Gossip Girl. Well, it's new to me. Anyway, this show has a cast of Leighton Meester, Blake Lively, Penn Badgley, Taylor Momsen, Chace Crawford, and some other less unimportant people that I can't remember the names of. But you know what I think? I think that my blog is kind of like the Gossip Girl blog. Hold on, I'm getting ahead of myself. Let's explain, I guess. Anyway, if you don't know what Gossip Girl is—than you've so obviously been living under a rock—but it is a show about Manhatten's most elite members. And narrating all the juicy gossip is none other than Gossip Girl, and the voice would be Kristen Bell—the one running the blog. But I find that this blog is kind of like Gossip Girl because in this blog, I write my deepest darkest secrets and talk about whoever. Because well, when you're anonymous, you can. I could say anything from Felicia Cangin is a slut to Shane Kroll is a player/man-whore. You might not know these people, but let me reassure you, I do. And I intend on telling every detail on what I think about these people, what's going on my life & everything in between. And I trust me, I have only told you the honest truth. But back to Gossip Girl, my sister has just recently gotten a Netflix account so she gave me her email & password and now I jack it and I'm trying to watch all 5 seasons of Gossip Girl before the 6th one starts. It starts on October 8th, 8 p.m. for East Coasters, 7 p.m. for West Coasters. And for New Yorkers, the channel is 11. It's the CW channel, same as Supernatural, Nikita and The Vampire Diaries. It come's on only on Mondays. So you better watch, biotch! Yeah mother fucker, I rhymed. Anyway, time for me to get back to the glamorous life of squeezing in only about a million episodes of gossip girl in only 3 weeks, so you let me get back to my Gossip and I'll let you get back to...um, what were you doing again? Jerking off? Envying me because I thought of the anonymous blog idea before you did? Wishing you had the amazing life I did? Well, hunny, it's all fun and games, and, you're kind of not invited.

Quote Of The Post: ...And, you're kind of not invited. ~Blair Waldorf. Season 1, Episode 1, Part 1. 

XOXO, Gossip Girl.
Oops, I mean XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

Bucket List: Post #1

Okay. So today I'm going to start a new series: Bucket List. You guys most likely know that over the summer I tried doing a bucket list and it didn't work out so well because I did almost nothing besides sneak into r-rated movies with my best friend. But I am creating a life bucket list. So, anyway. This bucket list is going to be well...a bucket list. A bucket list, if you don't already know, is just a list of stuff you want to do before you die. So anyway, today is Monday and so every night this week, I am going to create a couple of things for my bucket list and than at the end of the week, I will try doing at least 5 of those things on my bucket list. And btdubs, I'm stealing stuff from everywhere. So, let's begin:

1. buy a bus ticket to nowhere
2. publish a book
3. tape myself while skydiving
4. spend an entire day kissing somebody incredibly hot
5. paint fight
6. watch every 90's movie ever made
7. pay for every person's meal at a restaurant
8. close my eyes, stick a pin anywhere on the map and travel to that location
9. tell everybody im sorry.
10. take a nap in a bed that's on display in a store
11. start a flash mob
12. sundrop everywhere for a day
13. reinvent myself
14. carve my name in a tree
15. take a road trip with my best friends
16. get 4 tattoo's: stay strong, love is louder than the pressure to be perfect, kiss lipstick, RIP Nikki Marie Morra 4-11-98 - 4-20-12 (my cousin)
17. eat an entire jar of nutella
18. fill out a job application at every place in new york city
19. watch every harry potter movie ever made 
20. go to a drive in movie
21. get a belly button ring
22. get a nose ring
23. star in a movie
24. make sure at least 10 people know that they are worth life & everything that is possibly amazing.
25. decorate a house.
26. go on a yacht and do the jack/rose thing with somebody
27. buy something from starbucks and love it
28. meet demi lovato, show her my tattoo's and tell her she saved my life.
29. be taylor swift's best friend for a day
30. attend a 'certain' baseball game

So that's going to be all for tonight. I think it's pretty good so far (; Alright homedawgie dawgs. I'm outie 5,000. Catch ya' on the flip side, yo!

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

P.S. Yes I do realize that I have physcological issues and I should probably get help and that my weirdness would be more easily accepted if I was mentally challenged.

Before You Get All Pissy With Me + Halloween Costume Ideas!

Okay. So it's obviously a known fact that I have not posted for kind of a while. A.k.a., 4 days. But anyway, I have a pretty good reason. I'm fucking sick. Like cold sick. Yay, go me, fucking sick. Bad headache, runny nose, everything hurts :( So, it's not really my fault that I'm sick so hop off my dick and get the fuck over it. Second, as you can tell  by the Ariana Grande picture in this post as well and the title above, you probably noticed that I kind sort maybe really might want to be her for halloween. I also might try Demi Lovato or Selena Gomez, but you don't really have to do anything for them. Ariana Grande, you get to dress up and dye your hair or wear a wig, unless you already have that color hair. I don't know, it's just seems really fun. I'm still deciding. But, yeah. Anyway, my friends and I are planning to go trick-or-treating with each other, or somebody should have a halloween costume party. But we all want to go as some kind of a slut. And I'm not saying that Ariana Grande is a slut, but look at how short that dress is. It's pretty slutty. So, one of my friends is going to go as a little slutty playboy bunny and another might go as a bikini model stripper. And than I might go as Ariana Grande in a really short dress. But for now, I'm just sick, laying in bed. Whoop-dee-do. Alright homedawgiedogs, I'm peacing out for today. Love love, see you in the a.m. Maybe.

Quote Of The Posts: Slutty is only okay on Halloween.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

P.S. Thinking about changing the name to 'The Bitch Behind The Laptop'. Because let's face it, I'm kind of a bitch in every post anyway.

I Think It's Love...

I know I'm 13. But honestly, I do not give a fuck. I fucking feel like I'm in love. You have no idea. Have you ever thought about somebody so much it hurts? And you just want to be with them every second of the day? Have you ever wanted them so bad that you couldn't function without seeing that person? It's so amazingly amazing just to hear their voice of see their face. I can't help it. I had a sort of summer thing with this guy and it was....magical? I just...I honestly feel like I'm in love. I haven't been able to get him off of my mind for the longest time and he's one of the 'cool' guys at school so it's not like I could just walk up to him and be like, "I'm in love with you." It just hurts so bad because I don't just love him, I'm in love with him.  But when you're in love, you're supposed to want to do anything just to be with that person, but I'm not at my level of confidence where I can do that yet. Why is everything so fucking complicated ?! :( Whatever. I'm going to sleep now considering it's 2 a.m. Bye. 

Quote Of The Post: Love hurts. Deal with it. 

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop. 

Confidence.

Okay. Today is a little lesson on confidence. It's 1:37 a.m. and frankly, I do not give a fucking damn. Bitches need to here this shit. Actually, it's the truth, not shit. Okay, in today's society we have a lot of pressure on us. It's not just like, "Oooo, you need to be perfect or you're not cool." No, it's not enough to those people. Society digs down deep to your core and finds your weaknesses and uses that against you. It's not enough that we are trying to live up to the expectations are parents put on us, and than we see all these girls in magazines and on t.v. and in movies. I know that wherever I go there's at least, a million items saying stuff like, "Look whose modeling." or "New star has a hot bod!" But than we have all of the regular people in our lives. I know that even in my own house, I get jealous of my sister because she is incredibly gorgeous and I'm incredibly not. Or at least most of the time I feel like I'm not. But there's just a lot of people and things around us that makes us feel not beautiful and it sucks. It really and truly does suck.
But first off, I think to feel beautiful, you have to look beautiful. I know that when I definitely feel beautiful, I hold myself up with confidence and I feel gorgeous. When you have confidence, you are pretty. I know that it's hard to get confidence but I've heard that apparently when you get it, it's hard to go back to hating yourself. I am not trying to sit here and tell you how to feel good about yourself. I'm telling you that you are not alone in not feeling beautiful. And I also can't say that I think everybody is beautiful, because I truly don't feel that way. And it's means, but it's true. I do not truly think that everybody is pretty, or nice, or cute, or funny. It's a fact of life. But does that mean we should let it get in our way of living? Fuck no. So, I guess sometimes we have to just say fuck it and leave the house in sweats, a bun and no makeup, because that's life and that's what the fuck is going to happen sometimes. But nobody has any idea how badly I want everybody to feel beautiful and to feel free. I think just because I may not think you are gorgeous, you should feel gorgeous. Because I don't know, I'm just going to contradict myself here. You are beautiful. Everybody is beautiful. Whatever. Contradictions fucking rock. Alright biotches, I lubbedd you. :p Bye young homies.

Quote Of The Post: Fuck everybody, because nobody's as important as you and your fabulous ass.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.

On Behalf Of All Girls..

I just want to say that although the perception we perceive to the world around us, it's hard being a girl. First off, self-esteem issues. Every single day we see these gorgeous women on covers of magazines like Cosmo, Seventeen, and other teeny-bopper magazines. But the thing is, people can say millions of times over and over again: those girls are just airbrushed, they're not real, they have insecurites too. You still say all of that and it wouldn't make a difference. Even if we're the most beautiful girl in the world, we wouldn't believe it. It's hard. There are so many amazing looking girls around us. Models, Actresses, Singers, Public figures. It's just hard. And than when we see ugly girls with pretty clothes, it's just a really bad self-esteem issue. Guys just don't get it, it's hard for us girls to survive in today's society. Even the normal people around you, like your family. My family is the #1 source for my insecurity's. I swear, even if I just throw my hair up in a messy bun for 5 minutes, I feel like I'm embarrasing my family because I don't look like a fucking Victoria's Secret model. So...here's my 'dear you.' letters for everything.

Dear Boyfriend, 
You're about as real as February 30th.

Dear Bestfriends,
If I have any out there (landshark), I just want to say, you're called best friend for a reason (: You make me smile if I'm sad, you're stupid and funny, and you're smart like no other. We're not even compatible and that's what makes it fun! For some reason, you used to like Fang. What the fuck is that shit? Dylan was always the fucking boss, asshole. And oh yeah, this is Glen Coco Styles. Hint hint. Rebeckii Shanley. 

Dear Family,
Honestly; you people are my life. Sister #1 - I don't know if you could get any more gorgeous. That's what this entire post is about. You make me feel so self-concious because you are pretty, smart, funny and I'm just over here like a sack of potatoes. I looked up on the computer: 'I'm jealous of my sister because she is prettier than me' that's really sad. I know you don't mean it, but it's hard when people see you and than they see me and it's just like, I'm not even grilled cheese compared to you. But you are amazing. You always have my back and I love you for that and you've gone through a lot but you're still standing strong. Sister #2 - Listen you little bratty bundle of joy, you are perfect and you don't even know it. I love you with all of my heart! You are gorgeous, weird, funny and soooo oddly smart! Sister #3 - Die. Just kidding, I love you too. You're my stepsister, but we used to be so close like it's not even funny. But I doooooo love you (:
Dad - I fucking hate you. 
Stepdad - I fucking love you. You're the real dad I never had. You support me and love me and you're funny and you work so hard. 
Mom - Can I just tell you something, you are the most amazing person in my life. I love you like I've never loved anybody else in my life. You work the hardest for me and you bend over backwards for me even when I don't deserve it. You are perfect, even though you don't believe it. You don't even know how I much I loooove you.

Dear Girls I Hate,
Die.

I don't know. What I'm trying to say is, don't expect us girls to be perfect, because we're not. We're just...human beings. With great hair and wonderful perfumes. Bye.

Quote Of The Post: Nobody's Perfect, asshole.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.