Some People.

Okay, so I know this is two posts in one day and all but I just have to tell you this. Ever since I was little I have been really protective of my mom. And yeah. So I always hated when somebody okay, a boyfriend of hers would try to play around with her or make her laugh or even hurt her so I was always protective. And I have this really big issue with her having sex. I hate it, likes it tears away at me inside if I even think about it. I have told her this time and.time.again and I drop little hints at night because I have insomnia so I am able to stay up at night. And when she closes and locks her door and than I can hear laughing from her room it pisses me the fuck off. And its happening right now and I've never shared that with anybody but her and now you guys. And I hate it and it makes Mr so depressed and hearing it right now makes me want to kill myself or kill her. I literally can not.stand it and I always want to cry when I hear it. So like, if I told her, why the fuck would she keep ducking doing that to me and she knows I'm awake because my stepdad asked if I was still awake and she was like "Oh yeah definitely" because she knows I have sleeping troubles. I just don't get it. I wish that I lived in California right now and I was going to Stanford and I wish my life was perfect and my family never messed with my emotions and made me not want to kill myself every second of the day because they like to make me feel insecure all the time. Well now her door is open and she is going to sleep because my stepdad was just complaining he was cold and in pain so my mom went to come put another blanket on me and saw I was up. I'm going to go and think of all the ways the world.would be better off without me.

Quote of the post: Sail away from the safe harbor, because maybe the marina doesn't want you anymore.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.