Thank You So Much.

You know how I like to preach Stay Strong and shit? Yeah, I'm a hypocrite. It's sooo hard to stay strong into today's society. I constantly have somebody breathing down my neck. Whether it's my family or my friends or people I hate, it's everybody. I can't take it anymore. I've recently think about, the world would be a better place without me. I have to much will power to actually end my life or self-harm, but life is hard. It's not all range rovers and Gucci sunglasses and grande frappuchino's from Starbucks. It's real life and real life is scary and unwelcoming. Like New York City on black Friday. I don't like sounding emo but I'm actually not, but I hate that everybody thinks the second I'm not outgoing or quiet or something, that something's wrong. I know that it's irrevelant and it probably doesn't make sense but yeah. I wouldn't end my life or self-harm because when I have a problem or I want to say something I just write it on this blog. You guys have been my saviors. And don't think I haven't noticed. I used to think I was just writing to myself in my bedroom when I actually wanted to write. But I know you people are out there reading. And besides, I get at least over 50 pageviews per day and that may not seem like a lot to you. But I'm a 13 year old living in New York with a semi-hard/middle class/okay/pretty good life with to much freetime, a lot of hate, and a laptop. Basically, I want to say thank you. Thank you so much. I have other people to thank too, but almost 80% of my happiness I have for this blog. And I take out all my anger on people on this blog. It's an anonymous blog for me that nobody knows I write and I like it like that. It's fun. My advice to anybody who has something to say but doesn't want to say it to that person or something, start an anonymous blog. ANYWHERE. Even if you don't have a computer, there are libraries. Use your phone. Use your friends phones. Use your friends computers. Or even a diary. Diaries don't work because I don't like to write down all of my personal thoughts in them because I get tired of it. And I have no motivation. I know that nobody see's it so if I don't write in it, who cares? But I feel like I'm abandoning a family if I don't write on here. This is really long but I can't thank you guys enough for being so perfect and loving me for me and not judging me and just boosting my confidence. And even though you don't know me, I know you guys. Guess what I did 2 nights ago? So when I got this phone that I've had for a while, everybody wanted to put their number in my phone. So I let them. So all these popular people that I don't even talk to are in my phone and I know that some of them are going through a hard time or stuff and I just sent each of them a text saying, 'stay strong', 'you are beautiful'. And it's not creepy because it's not like I'm saying, 'I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU RIGHT NOW GIVE IT TO ME BABYYYY, I LOVE YOUR NEW CURTAINS/FURNITURE I'M SITTING OUTSIDE OF YOUR HOUSE RIGHT NOW'. See? No. Anyway, just be nice bitches. Like, in school the other day, this kid didn't have enough money to pay for everything he wanted in lunch, so I gave him the money needed and I said he didn't need to pay me back. That's being nice, I hope he pays it forward. But anyway, I don't even know. I could ramble on for hours and hours but I won't. I LOVE YOU GUYS. Goodbye (;

Quote Of The Post: I don't know, I love you guys.

XO, The Girl Behind The Laptop.